Skin Removal Surgery - The Ultimate Therapy
Today’s February 14th, 2021 and it’s frigid in Chicago. There’s 10 inches of snow on the ground and more on the way. My mind is less on the subzero temperature and more on the life changing surgery that’ll be taking place in five days.
On February 19th, 2021 I’ll be receiving a panniculectomy: the removal of my pannus, the skin and fat that hangs from my abdomen. This is considered my first plastic surgery following massive weight loss due to weight loss surgery. Since I was young I’ve always had a belly that touched the tops of my thighs. With weight loss it has retracted quite a bit but is still incredibly burdensome and noticeably out of place on my body. Clothes don’t fit particularly right and my belly often obstructs some exercise and movement.
With all that being said the love for my body is immense. So immense that I am seeking change to improve upon the body in which I love and have poured so much compassion into. See, change is necessary in all aspects of life. Without change there’s no growth. Though I love the person standing in the mirror I want to grow more into a physical and active space that is often deterred by the added weight and mass of my belly. This surgery is cathartic. It’s the best therapy I’ve ever received - years of trauma to be cut away, taking with it the old me. I couldn’t be more proud and happy for myself than I am at this moment.
The last time I touched my belly this much I was 7 months pregnant. The last time I’ll touch this belly is 2/19/21 and I’m beside myself with anticipation, inspiration and of course, love. Love for who I am, who I'm growing into and who I will be.